She tried to hide her feelings, she tried to accept the fact that the both of u r meant to be bestfriends for life, she do try yes she did. She hide her feelings, she accepted it whole heartedly. She act normally and she live her life peacefully by your side. She's at your side from the beginning, she acted as ur supportive "girlfriend" when the truth is she's the only one who's falling for you, she thought you're different she thought you'll catch her if she falls but you never did, she wishes upon the stars, she prays for your health and for your safety, she do it for you only you. She wishes that you'll do the same but you didn't.at first she didn't know her worth, she give you her best but you do give your worst , but however she accepted you and loved you form apart.
You acted as her partner un crime you called her bitch when you knew everything, she just laugh and admit she's bitch af. You accept her and she accepted you as well, you spent every fucking day together, watching movies, playing computer games, she even introduce you to her mom and to her family, she don't want to fall for you again because she knew you, she treated you the way you treated her before but still you're her weakness, she loves seeing you smile, she loves looking at you from apart or even when you're busy playing your game, she loves spending time and do crazy things with you, she loves just staring at you. she deny you, yes she do, because she knew you don't want to be with her, she silently hurtin again but not the way she's hurt before, she cares for you, she brings you breakfast, lunch and she even cook for you. She even do your homework.
She tried her best to be the best bestfriend ever, she spoil you and that's the thing, she lets you be spoiled when u don't evern spoil her. She even gave you late birthday present but she's hurt when u acted like you don't like it. She even break her rules for you fuck you! She don't want to be the same girl as before that's why she learned how to control her feelings. She's lucky to have you and spent summer and do stupid things with you. She's thankful the she met you, she almost love you again but she's stuck and scared to the idea of loving you, she's scared to fall in love again because of you, she's scared to get attached to someone again the way the both of you are attached, she's scared of rejections, she's scared of pretending, she's scared of what happened before, She's scared that you'll do the same thing that you've done to her before, and unfortunately you're doing it again. She's scared of being taken for granted. You take her for granted for the second time, you don't see her, her efforts and the things she's doing for you, you don't see her worth but it's okay because she knows she'll be happy even though you ain't sending her message, she doesn't even waiting for your reply anymore. I think she learned her lesson. I think she knows she's worth it. She thought she can't but look at her she can. she knows she's better. And that "she" is me.
- J-Ann Delfino
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